So it’s over a year since my last post and a lot has
happened since then. I’ll do my best to catch you up.
Here’s a recap…. Remember that my ex and I just ended our
four year relationship which I was extremely heartbroken. To add insult to injury, he called me three
months after our official breakup to proclaim that “[He] was the best thing
that has ever happen to me and I would never find anyone better than him”.
Well, a month after my birthday (May 2013) I found out that
shortly after we went our separate ways he started dating another girl. When I
mean shortly, I mean 3 weeks later. This new girl is the same girl he cheated
with me on and the same girl that went well out of her way to see the demise of
our relationship. At the same time, his family tried to mediate our breakup and
bring us back together but by then so many lines had been crossed and trust out
the door that I couldn't bring myself to re-enter a relationship that caused so
much heartbreak.
For a while, I cried at least once every day and lost a
major amount of weight. I didn't think myself worthy of anyone and I felt an
extreme amount of guilt and shame. I felt guilty because I gave my heart, love,
and affection to someone that didn't love me enough to mourn a relationship
that meant a whole lot to me. I jeopardized my relationship with family and
agreed to participate in things that I was not mentally or emotionally ready
for, all in the name of love. I felt ashamed because I revealed way too much
about my life to a man that didn't deserve it. In addition, I was hysteric that
I suffered countless breakdowns in front of my family, friends, and his
friends. So I guess the question on your mind now is how did I recover and what
I’m I up too now. Stay tune, there is a part TWO.
Stay Blessed
4ever
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